What’s going on, guys? I’m sorry it’s been so long since my last post. I know, I know, it’s no excuse but cut me some slack, I’m adjusting to this new college life. I’m still kicking though, so don’t worry.
I’m going to talk about something that was a very personal struggle of mine, Self-Doubt. I still struggle, I’m by no means an expert. I will encourage you, however, to take what I’m saying to heart, because I’ve been there before.
I struggle with doubt each time I sit down to write a blog post. Is anyone going to read it? Does anybody really care? Is this the message I’m trying to convey? It’s difficult to fight off that doubt, but stay positive and take care of yourself. Remind yourself why you’re doing what you’re doing and that, if only one person is impacted, you made a difference. While it would be nice to have my writings be shared and loved by many, that’s not the end goal. The goal is to touch someone’s life and be encouragement for those who need it. At the end of a rough day, put on your favorite music, go to the gym, do something to destroy that seed of doubt.
Life isn’t easy, that’s for certain. Sometimes a positive attitude gets beat down by the trials of life. Learn how to be vulnerable. You can’t do life alone, no matter how hard you try. Be open with others and don’t be afraid to ask for help. It takes a tremendous amount of strength to admit weakness. I think my relationship with my mother best illustrates this point. I’m a momma’s boy, it’s true, but, I would never talk to her about my problems. It was doubt, shocker, she’s a busy woman, I doubted that she would want to hear about my menial problems. I had to be vulnerable and open with her. And while it was tough at first, I can trust and tell my mother just about anything, now.
Purpose. As a college student, I can definitely say I have doubted my purpose. What am I worth? How the heck do I decide what I want to do with my life? I’m not exceptional at any one thing. The parents might hate me for this, but, I’m going for it, do NOT tie your purpose to a job or even a career. That leads to doubt when your job isn’t going well and you’re struggling to find a career. A purpose isn’t a job, it’s your reason for existing. I’ll slide you an example, my current boss, didn’t come crawling out of college waiting to become a State Farm Agent. That wasn’t his purpose, but you know what is? Showing his employees and customers the love of God, providing for his family and his employees, and giving young college kids like myself a great opportunity and a flexible schedule.
Make a difference. As cliche as it is, Gandhi was spot on when he said, “You must be the change you wish to see in the world.” One of the best ways to destroy doubt is to do things for others. It’s crazy how it works, but it’s true.
I was having a rough day at work, I had been cussed out for trying to explain something, I got cussed out again for reminding someone they had a bill every month (reminder: you have a bill every month), I was feeling pretty worthless, guys. I get a call, one of my favorite customers, she tells me that she just got out of surgery and they’re struggling to make ends meet, on top of that a close family member recently passed away. And I was complaining about being called mean things, talk about a new perspective. I asked them to come down to the office. I got them a gift card to their favorite restaurant and gave them both the best hugs when I saw them. We sat and talked about everything going on and I had the opportunity to pray for them. Every ounce of doubt was shredded in that moment, I was doing what God has placed me on this earth to do. It doesn’t have to be quite that dramatic, a simple smile to a stranger or paying for the person behind you in line can knock out those feelings of doubt.
I’ll wrap up with this, you are unique. 1 Peter 4:10 tells us, “Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms.” Each and every one of us have strengths, we all have weaknesses. We do no one any favors by doubting ourselves, in fact, we deny others our best qualities when we choose to doubt ourselves. There are countless people in the world, waiting for your talents, your abilities, don’t let doubt stop you from inspiring others and making a difference. You WILL make a difference. Choose to destroy doubt, every day.
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